And i found my answer, until that day.....

In life everything goes according to the plan until you come across various uncertainties, but a life changing one!

After my marriage, I shifted to Dubai and it had been almost three months knowing new family and the new place but trust me I didn’t find anything attractive or mind-blowing in this new place called Dubai. A typical Mumbaikar at heart, I found this place to be very artificial and fake. I am sorry but this so called “the happening city” of Gulf had just failed to impress me. But as I was destined to get married in Dubai I was left with no option but to improve the living, my way.

So after a gap of three months I decided to take up a job as I love to face challenges and to deal it my way because I like my life to be more than normal.  I kept applying and my continuous attempts showed me a dim ray of hope but yes good enough to keep me going.  Yes, I was called for an interview after a few days of struggle and it was scheduled on a Monday afternoon and I was to reach the company at around 2.30pm.

I was already running late and suddenly I remembered this quote “Day that starts well, ends well” (trust me bad days remind you of things you hated even as a child) and my day had already started on a weird note, I got involved into a small argument with a hooligan, got stuck while punching my season card at the metro station (miss our local window ticket counter) and to add to the day, my water bottle’s cap was slightly left open and entire water spill on my dress for people to give me weird looks and think “Ah Indians” (smirk)!!! Somehow after facing all the trauma I reached my destination and with nervousness at its peak,  I gave my interview and I felt as if I was at a war and my mission was accomplished.

On my way back I was extremely relaxed and with nobody around you, you tend to talk to yourself (I’m sure everybody does) and I was doing the same. While walking I was thinking about all that, that had happened to me and suddenly I saw a beautiful girl in her twenties, blonde hair, spotless face and extremely beautiful walking towards me in my opposite direction.  Being a girl I got attracted to her and this left me puzzled of how a guy would handle himself looking at this beauty.  In a fraction of seconds thousand and more thoughts swam in my mind like who she is? Does she have a boyfriend? Is her boyfriend equally handsome? I term such thoughts as TFTS i.e. “Typical Female Thinking Syndrome” and amidst all this suddenly I caught this girl staring at a guy who was already accompanied by his girlfriend or should I say his companion and looked extremely happy with her but what caught to my attention was the emptiness in the girls eye’s and her expression which spoke almost everything about her. Though she was beautiful, one in hundred but sometimes you are not lucky enough and blessed to have your loved one right beside you to make you feel ‘special’ at any damn cost. I did not feel pity at her loneliness or sad to know why she was alone? Was she not loved or had she never been in love? I did not know the answer then and even now but what I understood at that moment through her urge that said so many words in one second was, whether your partner is beautiful or not, you are far or near, you are in India or Dubai what matters the most is to have that one person in your life who you can look up to, simply hold your hand and say I AM HERE to take care of you and all your worries.

Now I have no regrets of why I left Mumbai and came to Dubai, Why Dubai is so artificial? Because what matters to me now is that even in this artificial land I have one thing for real and can call mine is, my LOVE.

Life is full of crazy incidents and accidents, you do not know when, how and what you get to learn and experience! So live with this fact and enjoy the present without bothering about what you had today, what you lost yesterday and what’s in store for you tomorrow!

Birth of 'optimism'

It all began when i was just 9 years old, don't get curious, what happened was nothing new it happens to every child.

A little description about myself would help you relate more closely to my story and know why i chose to write on this. I was petite with grumpy sad face & dull eyes with no excitement. I was not like any other child though going to school and performing all the other tasks what a normal child would do. But i was different, different in the sense i had no confidence in me in fact when a child is 9 he/she would definitely not understand the term 'confidence.'

Lack of confidence had become like a curse to me. To every situation the only answer and respond would be fight & anger, people started disliking me because of my nature, they started calling me 'akdu' (arrogant) which i wasn't, actually i was dealing with something i was not familiar with.

Then came the days of blushing, attraction to opposite sex, days of adolescent! A child who did not see any positivity throughout could not expect much out of her teens....

Between all these transitions that took place with me, was a voice which kept saying 'My child' don't get upset, never get furious at anything so easily, don't shed your tears for something which can be solved easily by talking above all never lose hope. At first i did not even bother to pay attention at his comments. I always neglected it and never tried even for a day to follow what he said until came a day when he left forever and never came back. No second chance to listen to what he wanted to say and what changes he wanted to see in me. I kept crying and yelling and cursing myself for not listening to him but all i could do was nothing except to do what he told me earlier to do. Initially i thought why now but that was the answer to all my worries, and answer to what he tried to explain. Positiveness, its never too late to understand yourself and never too early to follow the path of optimism.

Life is very simple we make it complex by over thinking on certain things which are not worth even a thought. Keep the lantern of hope always lit with positiveness because its never about how you look, how intelligent you are or what is the world talking about you. It's always about how confidently you present yourself, how positively you tackle the negative comments and how optimistically you do things you want to without worrying what others might think.

 Now its your turn, don't get late, somebody somewhere is expecting something positive from you :)